Puzzle Pieces in the Laundry

"To everything there is a season," is one of my favorite quotes from the Bible. A time to do laundry, a time to do dishes, a time to clean house. As I wondered if I'll EVER catch up on this house, I found a puzzle piece in the laundry basket. The kids were working on a puzzle on the dining room table, which doubles as a laundry table, something I detest & hope to remedy soon. The puzzle piece make me think I should be happy to find it here, because that means there are kids in this house. Just like the handprints on the inside rear of my van window say the same thing. "There are kids here." I shall be grateful because there are parents who have just lost their child and children who have just lost a parent. Some days there is too much sadness. To those who have lost, peace. Some day there will a time to dance.

Find the rewards in small bits

Hectic weekend. It's a long story. The more I try to make sure others are having a good time, the worse things go for me. So, I'm printing the pictures of the fun things about the weekend, and passing them on to the ones who enjoyed it.

Pictures are some of my therapy. A little wine would make it better. I say that but I haven't had a drink in about a year, when my sister came to help me clean the house. She has the energy that I can't find anymore. Which is why I can't drink much-I'll fall asleep. Then Mommy will wake up to Lord knows what mess that can only be created by a 2 and 3 year old team.

All I know is a festival, a late night, and 2 small children don't mix well. The fireworks topped it off. I can't predict things and I only had the best of intentions. We didn't HAVE to go anywhere. But we tried to go out like a normal family. That's a good one. Normal.

My husband and I are in law enforcement. Our schedules and our family is not normal. Weekends off together have just begun and it's weird to say the least, to be able to plan to go to events on the "normal" weekend.

We've done more things and gone more places this weekend than the last 6 months combined. Maybe we should try baby steps. There are too many factors that can alter the way the ship is sailing, i.e. the 2 yr old's nap time. DON'T mess with that!

Enough said. Going to get the pictures to Ashton. He loved the Roundup. Glad I said yes.

This is my first blog and first post (trumpet sound!). I hope this is entertaining and helpful to anyone who stumbles upon it.

I am an "older" mom with 2 small children. I have shared that I had my life planned and God laughed. Show me a person that is living their life as they planned it and I'll show you someone who has 2 children 18 months apart, a full time "male dominated" job, a husband that works shift work, and 2 step children, among a lot of other things.

I have realized as I turned 40, that Super Mom does not exist. I cannot give 100% to everyone. My work gets a part of me, my children, I hope get the biggest part of me, and my husband gets a part of me. Whatever is left of me, I get, which is not much when it's all said and done. If I gave everything I had to everyone, I'd simply go crazy. Which, after some of the days I've had, starts to seem like a good idea, since I would get some quiet time in a hospital, with people taking care of ME. Just kidding, really.

So, to any young mother, please realize that you can't be super mom. You can try, but she does not exist. She is a legend and a myth. God bless you for trying, though. Picture yourself as a pie and assign pieces to each part of your life. That is how much of you they get. "And they don't throw a fit."

By the way, the time I have spent here could have gone towards housework (because the kids are napping) but I fully realize the consequences and I don't care. The house will always need something. I am accepting a lot of things lately.

With age, comes wisdom.